Insomnia and a head full of way too many things..

I canNOT sleep, my mind's too full of thoughts. That's what you get for not wearing yourself out all day so that you're dead tired by the end of it that all you want to do is go to sleep as soon as your head hits the pillow. Now is so not the time to start thinking about everything that could possibly go wrong, the possibilities for disaster are endless, and my imagination is tireless.

Today was a near perfect day. Its been raining like rain all week long and today was the first COMPLETELY CLEAR BLUE SKIES, A SMILING SUN AND WHITE CLOUDS day. Too bad that I had to spend it in bed. I am one sick moose! I have this yucky cold that has turned into a yuckier cough. OMG! I feel horrible! I have almost no voice at all. My throat hurts so bad it feels like someone jammed a couple of knives in there. It hurts to talk, breath, swallow, cough (which I do a lot these last couple of days). I have had this stupid thing for almost a week and seem to be getting worse instead of better. The past week I have been offwork.

I like to think that I am a fairly independent person. So it is hard for me to admit that I need people. But when I came down with the flu, I was feeling completely outta sorts (I was also in a mild depression because of the recent happenings in my life). I sobbed like a baby and told ma that I needed my mom and she should not to leave me even for a second. I am XXX years old... and I can do a lot of things for myself but sometimes I just need my mom. Ma's scrumptious tomato and basil soup and loving attention worked like magic.

God bless RM for lending me The Sisters Grimm: The fairytale detective to keep me company. Well, I know the book is meant for kids aged 9-12 but so what! I am still young at heart and totally love fairy tales. Sabrina and Daphne, who have been sent to live with their mysterious grandmother, Relda Grimm. From their first day in Ferryport Landing, the sisters begin to unravel a mystery that reveals a family secret. Snow White, the Three Little Pigs, the Big Bad Wolf are all alive and now neighbors of Granny Relda in this community of Everafters. But life is not a fairy tale in Ferryport Landing. Someone has set a giant loose on the town, and it's up to the Sisters Grimm to stop the giant and find the Everafter behind its murderous rampage. Crazy adventures ensue when "grandmother is kidnapped by a giant, and some police officers turn out to be the Three Little Pigs." Great read!

I did sneak into work on Monday only to be sent home at the INSISTENCE of the pointy-haired boss and several of my coworkers. Seems my "husky" voice on the phone (and of course the sneezing) was a dead giveaway as to how sick I really am. I made it half a day on Tuesday and the entire day on Wednesday, had to work pretty hard at convincing the boss that I was ok to be there. Managed to dodge several co-workers who wanted to "feel my forehead" to see if I still had a fever. Well meaning people, gotta love em!

Another thing running through my mind is a friend of mine who is facing a pretty bad medical crisis.. I am worried about him and his wife. He is a very private kind of person but I can see the worry on his face. Really bothers me alot, really wish there was something I can do! Hopefully they both know I am there for them if they need anything!!

Another 2 hours before day break. Lemme try to get some sleep.