Flashback

There are tons of songs I love. People make fun of how I have songs I love, songs I looove, and songs I luuuuuuuve. But amongst the many, there’s a smaller subset that truly touch my heart. Be it the lyrics, the singing, the music or some altogether indescribable element .. there are some songs that make me go weak in the knees and a li’l wet in the eyes.

I also have a song for everybody I know. Not the same song of course, but different songs for different people. It’s not a conscious allocation. I have not deliberately decided that a particular song goes with a certain person. Also, there’s no logic to the allocation. For instance, my song for my mother is not a lullaby that she sang to me often but ‘Killing me softly’. I think she sang it to my father once, but that stuck in my head, the hazy memory and the song.

Over the years, I have lost touch with some people. Days and months may pass by without me giving them a thought. But a few strains from a song (one of the songs allocated to them in my mind) and the memories come flashing back.

Radio City is running a series called ‘Musical-e-Azam’. It started last week, and in the 6 days till now, they have got 6 amazing singers to the studio – Asha Bhonsle, KK, Kunal Ganjawala, Sunidhi Chauhan, Udit Narayan! Today Shaan was on air. Shaan sang this oldie for his wife. Damn! It left me misty eyed.

Tumse milke aisa laga
Tumse milke armaan hue poore dil ke

Ae meri jaane wafa
Teri meri meri teri ek jaan hai
Saath tere rahenge sada, tumse na honge judaa

Tumse milke aisa laga
Tumse milke armaan hue poore dil ke

Mere sanam, teri kasam chhodenge ab na yeh haath

((Love, from a woman’s point of view. No red roses, no pink teddy bears, no chocolate-covered candy-hearts. Just a gentle assurance that I’ll always be there. ))

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A passing thought: It is hardest to forgive people you have loved; it is also toughest to forget them.