Ought I say anything about the current mess I have miraculously gotten myself into. Thanks to my big mouth! No wonder then that people say I have F-I-M (Foot-in-the-mouth) disease. I wish I could be more diplomatic and phrase things differently but I usual say whatever comes to my mind (some times rather bluntly!!)
I do not like it. Just as I do not like saying offensive things (at best I say "so mean and horrid") even if I am full of venom and I am feeling pretty hostile right now. If you have heard me mouthing hostile words, it must be the moment when I lost my temper.
A lifetime ago, my dad once told me that I should not be using the word Hate flippantly, cause hate is an all consuming feeling. His words made me think, and then withdraw my words in turn. Today, however, I have truly understood the essence of the word Hate/Hatred. It is indeed all-consuming!
So far I had classified myself as a positive person with a live-and-let-live attitude towards people and life in general but the feelings of hatred that I have nurtured of-late, has taken me by surprise. I have tried reasoning with self, but to no avail. I have never wished anyone bad! but this time I wish the person (in question) would simply disappear from the face of the earth.
Yes, I am hopping mad but I don't understand why the hell some people (intended for AK!) force me to behave happy-happy, goody-goody when I am not feeling cheerful or upbeat. I do care about others but I hate it when some Silly Billy expects me to giggle at some corny joke when I am in a murderous mood. Also what the hell is wrong in brooding? I cannot be sugary honey bunny all the time. Sometimes I am mean and irritable, especially when I have a zillion things on my mind to keep me on my toes. Maybe I am wrong but when I am angry I cannot stand the sight of happy people. It bugs me and I am not apologetic about it. I give two hoots about what anyone feels on such occasions. There I said it. Awesome!
Hope the day passes smoothly. I doubt the possibility!
I do not like it. Just as I do not like saying offensive things (at best I say "so mean and horrid") even if I am full of venom and I am feeling pretty hostile right now. If you have heard me mouthing hostile words, it must be the moment when I lost my temper.
A lifetime ago, my dad once told me that I should not be using the word Hate flippantly, cause hate is an all consuming feeling. His words made me think, and then withdraw my words in turn. Today, however, I have truly understood the essence of the word Hate/Hatred. It is indeed all-consuming!
So far I had classified myself as a positive person with a live-and-let-live attitude towards people and life in general but the feelings of hatred that I have nurtured of-late, has taken me by surprise. I have tried reasoning with self, but to no avail. I have never wished anyone bad! but this time I wish the person (in question) would simply disappear from the face of the earth.
Yes, I am hopping mad but I don't understand why the hell some people (intended for AK!) force me to behave happy-happy, goody-goody when I am not feeling cheerful or upbeat. I do care about others but I hate it when some Silly Billy expects me to giggle at some corny joke when I am in a murderous mood. Also what the hell is wrong in brooding? I cannot be sugary honey bunny all the time. Sometimes I am mean and irritable, especially when I have a zillion things on my mind to keep me on my toes. Maybe I am wrong but when I am angry I cannot stand the sight of happy people. It bugs me and I am not apologetic about it. I give two hoots about what anyone feels on such occasions. There I said it. Awesome!
Hope the day passes smoothly. I doubt the possibility!
